A Weird Week

I hate being ill.

This week, I suffered from the worst affliction known to mankind: man flu.

I made it through, thanks for not asking. But this time of great peril made me realize something: things take time.

I wasn’t blessed with the gift of patience. I love always being on the move, experiencing new things. I call this “Adventure Mode.” My friends call this undiagnosed ADHD – but what do they know anyway oh look a bird!

An illness, even a small one, forces you to slow down. Some very wise guy once said something along the lines of “If you don’t give your body the rest it needs, it will take it by force.” Fair enough body, you win.

Not a lot happened this week – on the page or in life in general. But that’s okay. This left room for some idle time. And if idle time doesn’t turn into rumination, it can become introspection.

I realized that I always push extremely hard. So hard that I sometimes break things. This is great in some endeavors, but not so good in others. If you’re always on the go, you might miss chances you otherwise would’ve seen if you were going a tad slower.

That’s why I don’t have anything concrete to show from this week. But some fascinating ideas came to me in the last couple of days.

Even though I think our modern world has an agency problem, it seems that it’s beneficial to not just take aim and shoot, but to think about what to aim at in the first place. Action is still better than inaction, but it might make you hit the wrong target.

It seems that, sometimes, it takes an illness to look at life in a healthier way.